Sooner or later, we all die.
As I watch my own parents get older and more frail, it hits me too. The people I used to know are older now. The older mentors I used to look up to as well. It would be so sad when they are gone permanently. It’s also a bit sad because I wanted those mentors to see me become super successful career-wise or wealthy or whatever. I’m nowhere as near as that lol. But I guess I can’t be too greedy.
I had a couple incidents recently where people younger than me seemed a little jealous or competitive with me. It’s of course common to see people like that. In general, younger people tend to be less secure in themselves and so their ability to control and observe their ego is a bit less trained. So they have something to prove. So they pick fights.
It’s a bit bittersweet for me. I know I’m not old/wise enough to impart a lot of wisdom for those younger people and yet I’m not young enough to be a “new kid on the block”, same as the other young kids.
If I have anything to say … I guess it is to lead by example. Sometimes with kindness and gentleness. Sometimes with sternness and discipline. But mostly, to show through action the kind of person that I am. All the words and smiles in the world cannot win popularity, at least not permanently. To really win the respect of others around you and to have them on your side, I think I really do need to do more than what I’ve been doing … more than just being a nice guy. I need to go and do hard things that most people are not doing. I need to go and learn hard things that most people will have trouble learning, definitely things that I will have trouble learning. I need to go and challenge myself to things that I have never done before.
Otherwise, I will get left behind like a useless outdated old scrap! lol
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